I am having a major identity crisis right now. I've tried explaining this to my sweet husband, but he just can't understand. Or maybe I'm speaking another language, and I don't even realize it. I don't know. If you're a mom and reading this, maybe you'll understand, and I so welcome your feedback.
I feel like I've been a wife and mom for so long that I don't really even know who I am anymore, beyond those two titles. It's not that I don't like being "Rick's wife" or "Emilie's, Ty's, Gage's and Allie's mom". I do. I do so love my family! But who is Andrea, as a girl, I mean? What does she like to do? What's her favorite food? I mean, really. I've spent at least the last 11 years fixing foods that I know my family will eat and that I've, truth be told, suffered through at times. (Seriously, does anybody actually really like sloppy joes?!) Do I really love jeans and T-shirts or am I just so used to having nowhere to go but the grocery store that I've become lazy and too "comfortable" that I forget to take care of myself?
In the midst of all of this confusion, I have a nagging feeling that I should already know who I am. Maybe the secret really is found in Christ. When I become secure in the identity I have in Him maybe this other stuff won't matter so much. Maybe that's wishful thinking. At any rate, today I'm on a journey. A journey of self-discovery...to find out who I am, what I like to do, listen to, wear, eat, etc. Pray for me, please. This could take a while...
